Saturday, August 29, 2009

what did i do to deserve this? hauling around an esuvee for my inlaws?

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Keegan REALLY wanted to go to the temple

He's so sweet! He cried when mommy was going to leave to go to the Bountiful temple. So we decided to walk around the beautiful grounds.
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Monday, August 17, 2009

Bed Bath and Beyond Geek

Check this out, only 14.99! I'm such a geek. It's a rollable keyboard! Merry Christmas?
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Posterous | Re: Note to self: never go this early to doctor again

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Note to self: never go this early to doctor again

Well I find myself with some time on my hands. Somehow a 20 minute appointed with my shrink, turns into a 2 hour lunch with commuting. And with the way my boss has been harping on time, I do NOT want any trouble. Last week she all but kicked me out of the building at the exact moment I was supposed to clock out. Which reminds me, I forgot to clock out at 10:30 today. LOVELY! I'll have to email my manager and see if she will fix it. My supervisor would probably do it, but I am not quite sure whether we're even on speaking terms today. I went over her head, you see. At least that's how she sees it- I went into my manager's office and asked to keep my overtime, rather than taking an extended li burn through the time. Like I need longer lunches!? I want to go home! I want to be with my family. One day I'll find it, and prove to the company that in no way are we required by law to actually take a lunch. That would be ridiculous. Anywhere. This is the most "fun" (read "awkward time") time I've ever had in a waiting room. There are now hens in some sort of understood dual conversation. They are speaking even at the same time. They don't care whether they understand what the other has said, it's maybe just two monologues but either way it's confusing as all Hades. Especially as they act like I'm not here. The first one to come in tried to start one of these with me, giving me possibly a fourth of the conversation. The other 3 are in her head I'm fairly certain. I didn't answer just looked at her with her awkward jokes and gave a breathless laugh as though I cared. Thank goodness the three kids that were all together with no adult are now gone. I've never wanted to count 1-2-3 for someone else's kid before now. And I was about 3 seconds away from telling the girl that it is up to her if she lets him bother her. Like adults used to tell me. It's now 10 minutes after my appointment should have started and I think my doc is still in with the one who showed up 5 seconds before her appointment. Well hopefully I get more free samples.
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Friday, August 14, 2009

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Posterous | Re: I think I have something to try - a pod cast THIS IS JUST A TEST

  
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I want to see if this works without the link in every post.

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Wanna see what I've been up to?

Go to my blog and read about your lunatic asylum friend, family member or whatever I am to you. welbutrinlog.blogspot.com or just follow my posterous: lookmomnohands.posterous.com

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Going public!

I have decided that there are enough people who would benefit from the occasional update of my progress, and from the wisdom gleaned from the steps of my life-journey (I know, sounds corny), that I would publish this blog publicly, from now on. I will quite possibly be posting exclusively from my new found favorite posterous. And would invite you to try it out. That being said, I'm also going to include AdSense on this blog, which has in no way made this "going public" thing more of a priority. It may just help things otherwise, and perhaps I will be more motivated to provide worthwhile and stimulating content, if there's a bottom line there. I say occasional, because when I was first attempting to do this thing, it was a 600+/- word essay/column or something, a day. I'd rather focus on my family, as that is the point of the whole journey.

As a quick catch up, as I've probably not made everything clear. I'm sweating, again, and that's even though I'm sitting in an air conditioned room, and I took my shoes off. I am currently concerned, yet again about blood sugar levels, especially during my work hours. I am falling asleep at work a little less than Celexa, and way less than Seroquel used to make me. Cymbalta is fair to good for right now, although I have not bit the bullet and bought the prescription. I'm living off of free samples from my Primary Care doctor right now. I'm dirt cheap, and proud of it. Welbutrin is put away for now, with the possibility of being joined by others, as are about 45 the rest of my 90 day Celexa. I wonder if I had better get into my pharmacist and get the rest of those, just because I paid for 90, and for some reason he only could release 60 to me at the time... I can't seem to get comfortable because my back is aching. I told my wife it was probably because "the monkey is back on it." No I don't mean any addiction, really I mean my noisy little squirt of a boss. I've gotten severe headaches recently, and I fear I may be starting one now. Severe like I feel like either I take about 800 mg of ibuprofen, or my head will explode. I am still a geek. I'm working through certain aspects of what made me a geek, but I'm still myself. I'm a calmer, more self-aware, and less anti-social (read ALL the definitions). I keep a fairly cool head, compared to past days. I believe most people would agree. Meanwhile I'm actually living at home again. So long as I am healthy with my expectations, and I keep my temper, and don't give up control over my actions to my emotions or to any unseen forces. This implies there is no such thing as losing control, without making the choice, at least. And today is viewed as another present! I am starting fresh AGAIN, and I have a history of acting better than before, short though it may be, my efforts outweigh the opposition, and when that happens everyone around me wins! My family especially. So any of you who are just getting to know me, or even those who have never read this blog. Start from the beginning. It's not that long, but as you notice things, please comment. Please mention times you are glad to know me, or that you see progress. Because that's what I need. Not praise per se, but more validation, and definitely any and all feedback. I am not looking for some sort of water cooler, everybody's-talking-about-it, status but if it helps you, go ahead! I promise I won't stop writing.

I plugged in my UPS for all of 10 minutes tonight

I don't miss it.
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Monday, August 10, 2009

Now we're spying on mommy while she waters the plants out front. Keegan originally thought she was gonna jump out.

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My kid just fell in the toilet

3 years old, and messing around, he slipped and now his back is red. And mom and dad's faces too. At least it was at home.
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I work in Records, so you don't have to.

Oh and another thing: no one's perfect, especially not in your town.

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This is for my brother

I just had to get this on all my posting sites, just because it's stupid, and has to do with "the only thing he'd post to facebook." start the countdown now... That is, if this format works.
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60 days and counting down to St. Kitts!

Holy cow, I hope my passport comes in time! I love having a job, but I've GOT to get out of here!
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